I have to say that I am doing well, but things have been pretty testing lately. With finances, with my relationship with Jeffrey, with immense longing to see my family, with feeling inadequate, with not completely understanding circumstances but being required to walk by faith, etc, etc.
God is good. And He is faithful. And He is opening doors for me to walk through all the while being guided by peace.
And things are looking up! :)
I'm learning lots of things and being stretched in many ways and I still am convinced that moving to SoCal was and is the best decision I have yet to make. I'm learning that walking in the center of God's will is the best place to be. I'm learning that when God says to let go and when God says to hold on; there is a seriousness to the command. I'm learning that God's grace is sufficient.
I'm learning all of those things through being here and living life.
But through my relationship with Jeffrey, through this absolute knowing that God has brought us together to be married, given to us by His specific Word; I am learning love.
I am learning that love is an action and also a way of thinking that reaches far beyond and past infatuation, emotion, and feeling. Even mutual interest. Love is the thing that stands when everything else is falling apart and even then, it is the thing that moves you to stand when it's so much easier to run away.
And in recent times, it would have been easier to run away. But that is the cowards way.
Worse. It's completely and utterly against GOD'S way.
Which is perfect. By the way.
Love is patient. Kind. Not envious. Keeps no record of wrong. Doesn't boast. Isn't proud. Hopes all things. Believes all things. And everything else written in 1 Corinthians 13. You know it.
I'm learning the very real and practical application. I'm hoping and believing for my marriage, before it's a legal thing, despite circumstances. It's pretty difficult.
I'm learning to be open and honest, I'm getting alot of things exposed that i need to work on, and I'm learning how to be selfless. I'm really, learning alot of things. It's all good. I'm very excited.
In other news, I'm moving tomorrow!!!!! God completely opened the door to share a room in an apartment with a friend and it's totally affordable. In Huntington Beach. Surf city. Home of the skaters. Full of more people that need Jesus. I'm just really excited to buy new bedding, to have a bed, to have space again, to meet new people, to have a new dimension to be trusting Jesus in, and even moreso to see His word to me about having favour and being in want for nothing to come to pass. WHICH it totally has been, since day one of moving here. It's absolutely incredible.
Today, a man named Willie called our church and said "I want God." Brian gave him the gospel and led him to Jesus, and now he wants to go hard after God. He has lost everything because of bondages but is ready and willing to have Jesus work a miracle in his life. Which HE will. Because He's faithful and He's a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. So pray for Willie. We're very excited about this lost soul being found and restored back to Jesus. Praise God for the harvest!
I'm really tired right now, but am trying to update this thing as much as possible. There's just so much going on. And some of it, I can't put on here. Yet.
Oooo! I'll be in my hometown, staying with my family- along with my love and our friend- from May 24-30. I can't WAIT to see my family, to cuddle with my mom, to talk with my brothers, to compare stories, to see the growth (and I hear GREAT things from my brothers about their spiritual lives), to eat my mom and Jerrad's cooking, to scare my dad, to see my friends, to be a part of my home church, to have my love be a part of my family and see a part of me that is severed by the distance, and a multitude of other things.
So May 28th at some point in the evening til some time in the morning, everyone should come to my families house because we're gonna be partying! Which entails: bonfires, food, ME, friends, more food, beverages, ME, story telling, laughter, ME, jokes, songs, jam sessions, and other things. Oh, and I will be there. Along with my love, Jeffrey and our friend, Chris.. It will be a fantastic time and so you all must MUST come :) I want to see as many people, friends and family, as possible whilst I'm in Medina. And it will go by fast. Just saying.
Good night and God bless fellow friends, family, and foes!
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